Saturday, December 05, 2009
'Sorry'I thought I was the one in predicament
But you are taken hostage apparently
By the inevitable you once mentioned
A term which I thought you used loosely
Blame my dearth of patience
For not utilizing the space I made for you
This friendship is all that matters
After all these memorable years of two
I thought I could understand
Until now; when I tried in vain
I was going to reach for your hand
But I think I failed yet again
Punish me for my being oppressive
I should have accepted you for who you are
I know I should have known better than to leave
Because it is no mean feat to forget this this far
Filzah
Written
3:04 AM
3:04 AM
Written
3:04 AM
3:04 AM
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Talked to Jasmine & most recently, to Vanessa.I love to be on the phone with Jasmine and I swear I can listen to her for hours. She may go round and round in her talking, but let me tell you, it's inspiring to listen to her. That she is honest with her opinions makes me comfortable holding decent conversations with her. I dare to say that another reason for this is we almost invariably share the same beliefs and outlooks on life.
As for Vanessa, boy, she made me laugh my head off mainly by narrating her experiences at work. Super humorous. Especially the sneezing and the 'sorry' part. LOL. These kind of people are sure to be indelible in my life.
Well that's who I am; sharing opinions & debating are part of my hobbies. That's the reason why I like honest people.
I've been reading of late. But I'm reading novels no more. I'm beginning to focus on self-help books. The one which I bought seems really useful so it is, after all, worth buying. I've no idea why but I have this urge to improve my English. This weird desire surging in me, despite my idling & slacking around.
Oh and how do you like my latest poem?
I was inspired lately.
:)
Mrs Alyph
Written
10:52 PM
10:52 PM
'2 Days'
The first, you had me in your arms
And insisted on doing it for me
My, I was weakened by your charms
And I was red all over, if you were to see
Then you smiled politely
Not to me but a customer
Convinced that it was genuine,
My heart grew fonder
And then you helped me with the basket
"It's all right," you had said
The dimness concealed the apple red
Colour I had on my face right from the head
The second was the last day I saw you
The day when I touched you
When I know I'd never get to again
So, goodbye my Prince Charming
Filzah
Written
3:10 AM
3:10 AM
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Sorry but for now, I can't tolerate being treated unfairly-I'm not sure about the time to come-because maybe, just maybe, I've yet to build up the emotional strength needed in the working life. Oh and perhaps I've to take into account my temper whenever this issue is concerned. I may say I have quite a foul temper that doesn't appear pleasant in the midst of a discrimination or even a reasonable reprimand. I've to work on that one. SOON. (Another issue being; I'm afraid my temper might scare guys away) Haha.So, I still dislike the way the boy at my work place told me off. Initially I wondered; was it just me or was he really treating me unfairly? After talking to people, I realised I should have known better than to keep mum-I should have stood up for myself! Oh, so this is the world. Very big & dangerous.
One soul which I've discovered:
-genuinely polite
-a gentleman
-hardworking
A soul which makes me smile.
Filzah
Written
5:16 AM
5:16 AM
I'm happy today. As a cousin who watched another grow up, I have every reason to feel happy on the day Kak Noi is engaged. Well all three of my close cousins are all engaged and will be tying the knot soon. I'm so glad they've found their other half and on top of that-from the looks of it-their sweethearts are very nice guys with good attributes in them. Lol.
*yuyu*
Written
4:44 AM
4:44 AM
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Just got back from work and boy, am I beat. So, this is work, I thought wearily.I saw a few familiar faces in the restaurant. One was Kak Noi and her boyfriend-the moment I saw them I knew it was her mum who told her about my working there. Lol. The others were my primary school teachers and I can call myself lucky because they didn't recognise me or anything.
People were nice. They taught, they talked and they helped. What I gained from my first day at work was the pleasant feeling of being helped, touched (as in touch of concern) and..that's all, I guess.
My opinion of work :exhaustion, fear of making mistakes and the exhaustion again. Let me explain how tired I am; the exhaustion I felt was to the the extent that I was already entertaining the thought of leaving the job. HAHAHA. Nah, it was just a passing thought.(i hope) :X
So while I was working guess what was I thinking? I was helplessly reminiscing the days when I sucked my spoon after dipping it into a bottle of nutella. Ah.
I feel like calling Jasmine up to chat later. Been a long time since I talked to her.
It beats me how to fathom out Naif's brusqueness. Is he even talking? Hah sometimes I'm just tired. That's not how friends are supposed to be. What agitates me most in life is when people don't appreciate others. That's probably because I'm used to showing my appreciation to people around me; it doesn't matter what they do for you. Even a smile from them is very expensive to me and I know I have to appreciate it. But I'm not mad at him. I was just saying my piece. :)
Mrs Alyph
Written
2:48 AM
2:48 AM
Monday, November 23, 2009
I woke up feeling relieved to know it was but a dream. It portrayed an altruist me, though, who went the opposite way through the surging, frightened crowd to go in search of my brother whom I felt was no longer behind me. Also, my courage was depicted when I didn't shed a tear when we were about to enter a gory realm rife with pains coming from the probable heinousness that once took place.My how I hate that dream
Filzah
Written
5:59 PM
5:59 PM
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Reporting for work this Mon(23/11) at Swensen's.Sorry :(
I sort of..err forsake my principles FOR THE TIME BEING, mind you.
Filzah
Written
3:57 AM
3:57 AM
Monday, November 16, 2009
Graduation Night '09 @ JYSS.16 NOV '09
Written
7:58 PM
7:58 PM
